Thursday, August 20, 2020

At odds with my body lately

Symptoms flaring. Fück. 

Wednesday, August 19, 2020

Changing my ways

Because I have more than one illness to manage, this has become a crucial part of my life 

Saturday, August 1, 2020

Always learning

In theory, people pleasing should be a positive thing.
The biggest flaw with my line of thinking only came to light AFTER decades of non-reciprocated people pleasing. 

(Fuck that "do unto others" shit, btw. It's too often one-sided) 

Continuously enabling by saying to myself "they'll meet me on my level when they're ready" will leave you depleted.
Some people have NO desire, or perhaps lack the capacity, to meet you on your level. 
Upon reflection, I saw my entire life in a new light. 
I realized that when I NEEDED someone, the room was empty. 
I had begun to resent my open heart.