Thursday, September 17, 2020

suppressing your feelings is exhausting

Friday, September 11, 2020

Grow up. Wear your mask.

Don't tell me I am being too cautious. 
 Are you KIDDING?!? We've literally got audiotapes that prove the faux President lied about covid19.  It can trigger M.E. 
I already HAVE M.E. 
I don't want ANYONE to get this life sentence.  
You're entitled to your opinion,  but the facts don't give a shït about your opinion.  
I'm so tired.  
I'm so disappointed. 

Thursday, August 20, 2020

At odds with my body lately

Symptoms flaring. Fück. 

Wednesday, August 19, 2020

Changing my ways

Because I have more than one illness to manage, this has become a crucial part of my life 

Saturday, August 1, 2020

Always learning

In theory, people pleasing should be a positive thing.
The biggest flaw with my line of thinking only came to light AFTER decades of non-reciprocated people pleasing. 

(Fuck that "do unto others" shit, btw. It's too often one-sided) 

Continuously enabling by saying to myself "they'll meet me on my level when they're ready" will leave you depleted.
Some people have NO desire, or perhaps lack the capacity, to meet you on your level. 
Upon reflection, I saw my entire life in a new light. 
I realized that when I NEEDED someone, the room was empty. 
I had begun to resent my open heart. 

Tuesday, July 21, 2020

To whom it may concern. Yep. You know who you are...

When I asked, no, IMPLORED you for help, 
your reply was that boys will be boys.
When I asked again weeks later, when things escalated,
you told me that you'd pray for me. 
Then crickets...
you were NOT being a friend, in case you ever wonder. 

Friday, July 17, 2020

It's been a while...

I'm taking care of ME now...